aosid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - what do i want, indeed. there's the quick feelings: i want to want something, i want to be wanted, i want solace. and then there's the details: i want to chase ghosts that are worth chasing (not just the ghosts that happen to be around). i want for the person that is me to be wanted (me specifically, not just me as a warm body). i want to have a reason to seek solace (a reason beyond loneliness and ennui). and i want to want to be. because i believe at the core of me that the one meaning of life is the meaning that we make. i want to make meaning: in good food, in good friends (nay, in deep friends), in seeing the bits of beauty that hang around the borders of everything, in seeing the oceans of beauty that lie within everything. in moments, the ones that linger heartbeat to heartbeat, inhale to exhale, the ones that are inextricably woven into sunlight or moonlight or streetlight. moments that make a heart eager. i want to be eager. 3:17 a.m. - 2011-08-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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