aosid's Diaryland
Diary
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to my martyr
this was conceived as a letter, undelivered upon further thought - my peace is somewhat repaired since that morning, and so the urge to inflict chaos is diminished in turn. also, it's kind of uninteresting (at least it's representative) i can respect the sanctity of careful thought (heavens know i indulge myself) but i cannot stand the finality: those sudden stolen bits of truth in dewy morning grass the quick certainty of your hand in mine - these are moments which flash past me with every breath and whose end stings me with every beat. i know something of timing and time of thought and excess of it and i know something of the decisions they lead us into but i also know something of what i wanted to promise you - that surety, that rightness, that peace - i need to defy your careful choice, because i promise you that it is mistaken. i promise you that the stars were never untrue that thought has betrayed you that your faith was well-placed in leaping that there is so much left in us that we needn't die off in some September dream.
5:31 a.m. - 2011-09-19
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