aosid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - annotated texts from last night. only not the desperate hedonistic kind. presented without context. also not from last night. "I sincerely hope you aren't miserable." it seems like a bleak sentiment, but it was oddly perfect. i think that was the night i decided that i wouldn't be miserable, not ever again. "Pretty makes things bearable." and it does. i breath easy. of course, i worry that i won't be as interesting when i finally chase off the last of those niggling anxieties, like my muse is constant unease. but it has to be possible to be radiant. i'm not hollow enough to pretend that the luminous giants i've been admiring are free from doubt, but they simply have to be drawing sunlight from better places. so that's most of it. those nights rang of summer-before-last. but not in a desperate yearning way. the truth is that it's just as comforting to name your fears now as it was two years ago. 6:38 p.m. - 2013-04-06 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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