aosid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - i still wonder what she saw. not out of self-loathing, just curiosity. i remember so little of myself from that time, tattered pages from a book i tried to lose on the shelf: i know i was lonely and angry, and she always wanted to be a healer. i was in love with someone else. i always talked about talked about that girl back home, radiated sure serenity, even while we twisted the knife. i cared so much about everything, wanted it all to be right and true, even when wanting that made me vicious, rabid. and she wanted that too, though her truths were different and her rightnesses caused her relentless unfair pain. and in the end, we both had to give ourselves away, had to crumble in selfish selflessness 2:59 a.m. - 2014-02-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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