aosid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - i had forgotten that wanting was such good sport. there's the aimless urgent waiting - if you pace hard enough the world will bloom - there are the sudden urges for self-improvement there is the unbounded insane bliss of a little empty response when you are teetering on the edge of despair. but of course there are the cracks in the pavement, tiny mirrors that can only reflect faults and doubts and maybe everything is coming up spades but maybe spades aren't the trump suit because oh god i've never understood this card game anyways and what do you do even do when your quiet awkward charm isn't enough to convince her of your ineffable cosmic synchronicity i had forgotten that wanting was such a trying sport 12:24 a.m. - 2014-05-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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